Dinner at the Hotel

So in this land of Casino..... I went to one of the Casino hotel's food court to get my dinner....
It was a place of poor char kwe tiau that has to rest in peace in my stomach before continue its journey to the '.....' ... What makes it's different from other char kwe tiau?
This one, you can choose what you want in your char kwe tiau, beside the kwe tiau itself....
Mine consist of lots of chopped tomatoes.... mushroom, and green veggies.... plus pieces of chicken meat...
Then the chef will cook it on the hot flat iron surface in front of you.... Until it ready to be served...

The taste? Nice... it's Thai style of char kwe tiau... shall I say it pad thai? I never try the authentic pad thai myself, so I can't confirm it...
But it was different style from Indonesian tek tek kwe tiau..... or Malaysian char kwe tiau....

Then after that we straight away to the beverage counter to get some fluid to flush away those remaining char kwe tiau in our mouth.... he

First I tried to order the coconut blend.... not available...
Then Milk Tea.... not available
Hot Chinese Tea... not available....
That's all was in the menu... really
Until Lemon blend .... Finally available

Then the waiter began to blend the lemon juice along with the ice....
I keep watching in front of the counter.... Then I saw he's started to taste the juice from the blender.... using a spoon directly into his mouth.....
Then he put back the spoon, on some glass....
I thought.. fine..maybe just taste the juice.... He then put some more sugar .... with the same spoon... yes... with the same spoon...
I lose my appetite to flush my mouth ...
Before I speak to cancel the order... he then taste AGAIN the juice using the very same spoon and put back the spoon on the glass that when I see it closer, it's a glass of sugar... Jeez... other people will buy that juices consist with that sugar contaminated sugar.... !
So I finally cancelled the order... and pay only 2 beverages of my friends that was ordered earlier....

The floor manager was there,... and asking me in Thai language.... I just furiously silent... and keep saying that I will not pay for that damn juice ..

Then I was thinking ... is that the same behavior of most of waiter/tress of hotel restos? How about cheaper restos then....

Well, since I am a dine out regulars ... no choice than to think as long as my eyes not catch it, just pretend don't know....

Prrrr....

So Today... So busy...

This is my last 2 days in this hell, I still have to do these loads of tasks!
Kerjaan gw kayak setan.... tolongs!

I still have couples of things to settle before I can breath in and breath out relax-ly prior to my flight... *my ticket still not with me... what the heck, yah... today is weekend so apparently the one who incharge to process my ticket is on offday... God bless her*

So this short post, I'm doing it for several hours, because of my mounting task.... seems never ends.... not only my shifts task... also those trashes from the previous one..... since that lazy son of the B did not do what are supposed to be his job!


Last but not least, Selamat menunaikan Ibadah Puasa bagi yang menjalankan... :) Smoga Poll ya Puasa nya... hihi....

I must back to my shitty tasks.... haiz....

Gagal maning....

Menyedihkan skale gw..... Gagal lagi berpola makan sehat...

Blakangan ini, hmmm skitaran abis laki gw migrasi negara de... gw makan kaga kira".... Sampe gw juga kebingungan gimana cara nya ini kasi makan perut gw yang kaga tau diri ...
Gimana kaga, biasa nya abis makan, gw masi dikasi waktu minimal 2 jam buat lapar lagi...
Ini skarang abis makan juga masi laper..... >.<

Jadi istilah yang tepat adalah 'Kaga bisa kenyang ini perut gw'... Rewelllll buanget dah ah...

Usut punya usut, selidik punya selidik.... Pikir punya pikir... Akirnya gw tau apa penyebab nya!!!

Gara" vitamin yang baru dikasi sama dokter gw! mana gw da nyetok buat 3 bulan lagi.... Kaga murah jg ya vitamin nya.... Trakir kali abis jutaan juga buat nyetok 3 bulan termasuk obat lainnya *maaf, jangan salah sangka saya bukan mekel jeksen ya sodara"*

Bayangkan saja hasil nya setelah gw konsumsi 1 mingguan da bgini, gimana klo gw trusin sampe 3 bulan?
Bisa kek bayi sehat gw .... Bulet"

Makanya gw stop aja deh, ganti vitamin lainnya, nanti stengah nya kasi ke adek gw yg cwo, stengah nya lagi kasi ke laki gw tercintah.... Biar pada montok....

Sekian brita dari gw hari ini..... Bentar lagi mau pulang.. Huuh blakangan susah tdur mlulu gw....

Feels enough with what so-called 'Clubbing'

I never judge anyone who likes to go to clubbing. I used to enjoy it also… Hmmm, about years ago.. ?
I don’t know, just my recent visits to Clubs, did not makes me happy anymore. I hate the crazy smoke there, I don’t like the over loud music there, I don’t like to see prostitute what so ever there, I hate to pay the table (hahaha) and drinks (which I don’t like to drink) there.
I just feel ENOUGH.
So for some of my friends who ask me to go to that kind of places (Clubs, whatever it’s called), I’m sorry, I just not interested.
I could be come again to Club in the future, if there is an event, like family’s hangout, or birthday? But just not for weekend-I-don’t-know-where-else-to-go…
Some said because I’m married now.
NO, it’s NOT because that reason. My husband and family is purely an open minded person. As long as I’m not become crazy in there. Hahaha….
It just happened that I do not enjoy that activity anymore.

Case closed..

My favorite activities now are dine out in such nice places and go to watch movies….
Which is remind me with my lovely husband again T____T
Miss him so damn much

Today's haul

I just purchased a new luggage, for hand carry... Since I will back for good to my country.... It cost me nearly 1,500 pesos... Which I think it's the 'price' for it... No complaint.... Because I don't know much about luggage market price... I just knew market price for Polo luggage *my sist in law work in there* and Samsonite *because I like it, and it's one of the best luggage brand out there*

Well, back to mine... Look at the eye-catching color... I was eyeing for another color... the softer pink... but unfortunately it's not available anymore, for the new stock... So I thought I just grab this one.... I was so tired and lazy to looking for another one.... 

Then actually I just planned to purchase any cheap luggage for hand carry... Just so, my excess baggage will be packed here... 

The max baggage weight allowed in Cebu P Airlines is only 15 kgs, fyi.... *I'm planning to prepaid for more baggage allowance...* Not that I have so many stuffs left here... Just I want to avoid the panic in case my check in baggage is more than 15 kg....  *believe me, Cebu P will not tolerate your excess baggage... even if it's only a merely 1 kg*

I've purchased some stuffs also.... some pairs of socks, a pair or slippers and likas papaya soap, titipan teman...

Honestly I cannot sleep.. >.<

Waiting my hubby wake up to call me .... tick tock tick tock tick tock....

Some facts about us in Ph

Some interesting facts -well, at least for us- of our journey in The Ph....

First Movie: The Reaping (Glorietta 3)

Last Movie: G.I. Joe (Greenbelt 3)

First meal: Bolognese Spaghetti from Prince Plaza 2

Last meal: Spinach and Mushroom Raviolli for me and Tenderloin Steak with Sausage for Nikko + bread with mozarella cheese (?) as an appetizer from Marciano's Greenbelt 3

First night: Prince Plaza 2

Last night: Rada Regency

First airlines: SQ

Last airlines: Cebu Pacific

Our fave hangout places: 

Glorietta 3, till we found out Rockwell Power Plant .. then till we moved to Rada, we loves to go to Greenbelt.. nice place... nice restos.. nice cinemas... just need 10 mins walk....

Our off day's getaway.... cinema... eat nice food... chitchat ... watching dvd at home with nice delivery foods... argue till one of us ngambek.... then baikan lagi... 

We don't like to go any place that is faraway from our lovely nest here *no time*.... :)

If you ask me, what is my fave place in this country... it's our nest....

Then what is my fave thing here.... when we're together at our off day....

That's why now I don't want to be here any longer... sadly, I have too... haiz...

My current laptop and phone cell were purchased here by my beloved husband....

We got tons of shopping bags here... just realized after we packed our stuffs... my husband throw it away 95% of it... >.< *I love shopping bag* 

Fave shopping place: Greenbelt...

Post kaga penting.... aka. NOT important post... you may skip it. :P

Aaaaaah.... gak jelas... malas sangat de...
HuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaH *tereak dalem ati, klo gak nanti dikira gila*
bahaya sbner nya dalam keadaan bgini gw kudu kerja 10 jam d kantor...
Dengan PO" n dagangan onlen d mana"... >.<
Ni aja gw da nahan diri senahan" nya....
Huhuhu...

Ada berbagai mascara *mascara gw da lbh dr 3 bulan smua umur nya... da basi kan harus na ??* .....
Macem" mineral makeup... *okeoke.... yg ini gw da jebol 1... uhmmm, 2 de, sama brush EM 1 biji* nyandu mi
Benefit.... *lagi pengen coralista, kok mahal bner yaaa*
Nars ... *banyak ini mah, kesel... bingung nentuin nya*
Brush" cantik MUS.... *ini bukan PO, harus mikir ni yg mana aja -boong de, uda ngincer bbrapa :P-*
Blom lagi baju"
Spatu
Tas"

Duh.... mank gak bole stress depan kompie.... !!
I need a distraction please....

Akyu pyushing....

Buldep jadi pengangguran....
Ibu rumah tangga juga kaga.... Lha kaga ada yg diurusin... laki tercinta tugas di LN, anak lom adin....
Akyu piyusiiiing..... Harus tahan diri belenjong juga....
Hueh

News..

I think I will soon move back to my lovely country .... So many things in my mind right now....
Need all the luck in the world please....

Hope anything happen later, just for our goodness.

Amin.

6 in the morning

Prepare prepare prepare....

I currently thinking to get out from my comfort zone.... 

Confuse but still stay on focus...

Btw, tadi gw baru nonton film apaan tuh yg tentang pemaen bola gitu de, yg ada David Beckham, dll, pokoknya pemaen" Real Madrid waktu itu.... *mreka sebage cameo aja*

Bah, enak banget hidup mreka... hahahaha, tp cuma sebates you can buy anything you want.... just name it....

Tapi nyata nya di balik itu smua, ada kompensasi yang harus dibayar..... Contohnya karna lo terkenal, lo bakal dihantui slalu sama paparazzi... duh jujur aja gw gak demen de sama yg nama nya paparazzi, in this case.... itu tuh org" yang slalu ngikutin celebs atau sapa pun org terkenal, sampe 24/7... kan kasian.... 

Korban nya da banyak de.... such as Lady Di, Jacko, Britney, .... Paris? hehehe...

Yada itu cuma selayang pandang aja gara" nonton film entuh....

Kambek.... focus... focus... focus....

Wish me luck ya temans!

What a day... a loooong one...

I've not yet sleep for more than 24 hours.....

Yesterday night I woke up at 6:30 PM, and then working from 9:00 PM until 7:00 AM..

After that I have to attend the customer service training at 9:00 PM. I actually got a chance to skip it, but I really think that this is a good opportunity for me to improve my customer service skill level into more professional level. And it's free provided by my company.

And so the training ended at 7:00 PM..... After that I still chit chat with my friends, and got a little lesson from Freeze... my manager.... That will be resigned soon. I cannot do much anymore to practice it, because I feels that my brain is tired already. Hehe..... 

Now I chillin at my home. To calm down my nerves.

I think I should exploiting my brain more in the future. Because I still amazed with how it can work out of my expectation when I really mean it.   

Oh Lord, please forgive me for it... I love YOU, YOU know it ....

Sunday afternoon....

In office!

Mungkin lagi PMS gw hari ini miserable banget .... AAAAAAA.... deymmit!
Huhuhu....
Pengen nulis sesuatu tapih....

Hmmm.... Gw lagi memulai untuk diet sehat... Ini pertama kalinya gw diet sehat.... Yah, supaya lebih sehat aja *apa sih?*...
Lagi teratur minum bubuk sayuran ni.... Lumayan si, masalah perut gw da lumayan berkurang... Yang biasa nya gw berkutat dengan masalah perut klo di kantor, sekarang da gak lagi.... tinggal beberapa persen aja de.... hehe.... Trus gw brasa kulit muka gw ada perbaikan sdikit.... Mungkin orang lain blom notice ya.... Tapi gw yang tiap hari bersihin muka sendiri kan bole ngrasa ... hehehe....
Smoga berhasil menurunkan berat badan berlebih gw.... Sejak kapan tau gw jd gendutt..

Januari, 2008

Juli, 2009

Did you guys notice the difference?

Yeah, that nasty fat now is laying everywhere in my abdo... arms.... face... blah!

Bukannya mau kurus ceking si... cuma mau yg normal" aja, n yang paling penting tuh sehat dulu aja de... Males kan sakit"an gak jelas... Maklum ni da 20 an jd da sdikit aware sama idup sehat... hehehe....

Trus trus trus..... gw brasa lagi butuh liburan.... Tapi kan liburan butuh waktu dan dana... Nah dana bisa dikumpulin... waktu nya???

Gawd! Gw juga lagi nunggu kejelasan.... Cepat" datanglah kau kejelasan.... Jadi aku tidak bingung karena kebelomjelasan ini.... Hikx

Smoga gw bisa bertahan hari ini tanpa nabok orang.... *breath in .. breath out... breath in... breath out... *

Mumbling *Bosan.... bosan.... bosaaaan..... *

Yak, gw da balek lage ke opis......
Hiks..... Liburan yang menyenangkan slalu berlalu sangat cepat.....
Kmaren baru interview jabatan manager.... Kok kek nya gw gak antusias samsek (yang di pikiran polos gw: kerjaan nambah segubrak, tanggung jawab nambah bbrapa ton, tapi gaji paling naek secuil)....
Cuma ngelirik dikit gara" mikirin kenaikan gaji.... Bgitu atasan gw plintat plintut pas gw tanya gaji *padahal klo nerangin masalah kerjaan semangat 45*, yaaaa, gimana ya...... hoam...

Baru masuk da diserbu kekacauan..... malas malas malas.....

Yada, jgn ngomongin opis gw lage de....

Alesan bosan slanjut nya ...

Rekening bank gw jebol..... ! Sapa yang jebolin ???? Gw sendiri aja gitu.... huhuhuhu....
Gara" liburan kemaren play too hard maybe....
huhuhuhu...
n gaji buldep, yg kluar bbrapa hari lagi, pasti cuma numpang lewat doank, bayar tagihan cc, n ini itu.......

Trus baru bbrapa hari kerja, gw da nemu barang" luncang yg treak" minta dibeli....
Maafkan aku anak"..... hiks... akupun sedih....

Smua waiting list yaaaa.....

Pengen mejengin haul kmaren"...... Tp lom smpe di foto.... huhu.... Besok" de klo smpet...

Smangat kerja gw kan padahal saat luang surfing" blanjaan ..... n sambil blanja.... kesian donk klo cm surfing doank, sambil mupeng.....

Ayo duit, branak pinak lah kau di dalam rekening ..... *daydreaming*

Breaking News

Well, at least for me and my husband...

On the first side, I got a better offer.... 

But on another side... my hubby is in the edge of danger situation... *hopefully its only temporary for anything better ahead us*

Whatever happen to him, it will automatically affect me... *oh Lord, I hope these all happened for anything better*

With all of the things that we've planned... This is really shocking.... Like a shock therapy in vacation *yes! we're even still on vacation*

Speechless........

Early addiction to mineral foundie....

Oh lord... I've been searching for the right foundation since like forever.... don't talk about the shade... let's talk about the type of it first...

The first ever one, I've tried the infamous liquid foundation, about 6 years ago.. I was happy with the result, because it's really gave me a great coverage and also didn't make my face look chalky *like the next kind of foundation I use, we'll go to that part, later*... Until I started to feel that the formula is way too thick for everyday use. So the next one I've tried the even infamous two way cake foundation... then the result for me was blah! I really don't like it... Feels like put tons of all purpose flour on my face... I'm not really sure whether the problem with the lack of my skill or it just not for me... Then I leave it *this one for good I think... unless I can find someway to use it on my face without that horrible feeling*

Then lately, about a year ago or so, I've been convinced by FD's chit chat forum *one of Indonesian fashion blogs* with the greatness of BB Cream.. BB stand for Blemish Balm Cream. I don't know where it's come from originally... I mean which brand made it first....

I just tried 2 products of it from TheSkinFood.... First one was BB Cream from Ginkgo series, and the second one was from Aloe series... I like Aloe BB Cream more, because of the texture... It's lighter than Ginkgo BB Cream, so it's definitely more easy to blend.

But I was not happy with the shade.... It's too white for me, and somewhat kinda pinkies... So it did made my face look a little dull.

Then actually before I've met BB Cream, from the same forum, I found a big enthusiasm for a new product *at that time* so called Mineral Makeup..... By learning about the product's benefits from the chitchats, then I cannot resist to give it a try, by purchased some of the product (the famous pioneer one I think is Bare Minerals from Bare Escentuals, but I haven't try this one yet) from Everyday Minerals (EDM). Just because it was popular in the forum at that time... hehehe....

Some members there sell it.

At that time, uhmm... until now, we just can purchase all these infamous mineral makeup by online order only. Therefore we need to pay the shipping cost *mostly from USA*, and also the tax in some cases.

So usually we just compound our orders to someone who open the Pre Order service. And this kind person will make those purchases...

We will need to pay more, for this kind person*many pre-orders have been made by my FD friends..love you ladies*, because without her we might be hesitate to order it, and then we cannot play with this lovely things.....

My first haul from EDM are 2 kind of foundie and then 2 kind of concealer, and then blushes, with 1 eyeshadow too.... All in loose powder formula.... *of course now my collection still growing up, because I still want to try other products*

I love these mineral foundation products because of the formula... It's like loose powder, but you only need merely so little amount, to layer all over your face. Wait until 5-15 minutes, and it will melt on your skin.... Give you a natural makeup look *not a thick foundie mask*... I just love it more than any foundation I've ever tried.... *I still love my MAC studio fix fluid tho... but recently it's tidily sit on the corner of my makeup trunk, need to find another shade later because this one NC20 still kinda bit yellowish for me*

You will need minimum one kabuki brush... to buff this product all over your face.... a regular powder puff will never work for this...

I've own several shades so far *well, open the website, and you will see a zillion shades from all those mineral makeup stores*... because I still haven't found my exact shade....

1. Light Olive.... slightly darker than my natural face color, thinking that I still can use it later when I go to the beach... haha. Or mix it with another shade.

2. Light Intensive *not really sure, this one is a custom made sample, it's labelled like that anyway* I like this one, but still thinking, this is not really right shade for me...

3. Olive Fair, so far, this is the most likely for me than others that I've bought.. But still... a bit dull for my skin? Well just slightly I think...

4. Golden Fawn.... this is definitely too yellow for me.... But I still use it.. mix with another shades.. hehe... lately, I've been mixed it up a bit with Olive Fair...

I think so far that's all I have for EDM foundation....

I still waiting for my Lumiere order, and still thinking hard to choose about 4-5 shades closer to my skintone from Meow Cosmetics. Psst, I tell you the last one even got 86 different shades ... mygod...

There are so many brands for this mineral makeup..... Mostly from USA, but you may found out about 1 or 2 from Singapore, if I can recall.... *I'm not talking about mineral makeup from massive brands like Revlon, L'oreal, and others.... because they're seems not made from 100%pure mineral... dunno, I just haven't check it yet :P..... MAC also got their mineral makeup line.... I got the liquid foundation of it..... MAC mineralize skin finish liquid foundie... but I really cannot tell if this line' products are made from 100%pure mineral or not*

Cmiiw ya...

Thanks for reading my mumbles... gotta do my house job now...

Ugh so tired nowadays.... less sleep than what my body craving for....

But very happy because tomorrow midnight, I will be in Jakarta..... ;)

*thinking*....sanely need a new job! .. healthier environment, indeed

Gila gila..... Gak tahan de gw sebenernya kerja di tempat gw kerja skarang....
Hati nurani gw terusik... *halah halah*.... melihat kekacauan di segala penjuru kantor....
Bau-bau KKN d mana".... lom lagi masalah SARA....
Jangan ngomongin prinsip kerja de, klo atasan aja gw bingung yang mana atasan gw, saking banyaknya *jabatan*... Blom knal sama ibu manager ini, da dateng bapak direktur sana... Bapak direktur sana ngomong A, bapak pimpinan departement ngomong B, ibu manager ngomong C, gak ada yang ngerti, secara C isinya bukan pake bahasa international....

Pusing".... Blom lagi orang" atas yang gak konsisten sama kata" mreka sendiri.... Ibarat ngejilat ludah sndiri, da kembung ludah kali tuh orang"....
Kesian si bapak konglomerat yang punya dana modal.... Yang ngejalanin gak punya otak bgini smua.... Lama" gulung tiker de pak....

Intinya gw butuh kerjaan baruuuuu..... *sobbing* Dengan lingkungan yang lebih sehat .... Tidak ada preman berkedok kemeja dan dasi....

Yaaaa.... berhubung gw masi juga kerja di sini.... slama gw kerja di sini anggep aja gw blajar *sesuatu - apapun itu, selama positif buat perkembangan nilai idup gw* sambil dibayar seadanya ....
I only took my part and won't give a sh*t with all those so called backstabbers, bootlickers, hypocrites... or stupid ppl who pretends to look clever *in fact, they're actually just can take as maximum advantage as they can from their officers* ... get off! I smells your rotten brains *if you have ones, anyway... it could be your empty d*ckheads that were so smelly*.... -please excuse my dirty mouth-

Oldies Memory

Gw blakangan ini lagi suka banget search acara-acara yang biasa gw tonton atau juga yang mengisi hari-hari masa kecil gw....

Walopun saat itu gw lom tentu ngerti crita filmnya, atau ngerti lagunya.... Cuma klo gw liat lagi skarang *thanks for Youtube and the users*.... gw jadi inget sama masa lalu de... hahaha.... masa kecil yang gak banyak pikiran & gak bisa terulang lagi.... cuma bisa dikenang jek...

1. Little House on the Prairie

Duh... ini film masa kecil banget si..... Masa kecil gw sama adek gw *yg cwe, yg cwo antara lom lahir atau masi bayi, hehe*.... masa remaja mak gw juga sbnernya si..... Cuma pas gw kcil kan ni film ditayangin ulang di RCTI atau TVRI gt de.... lupa, secara dl cuma ada 2 stasiun TV ini....

Gw sama adek gw sampe sering main jadi Mary sama Laura.... hahahaha... Blom lagi nyari" topi nya yg lucu" itu lo.....

Gw inget banget abis nonton film ini dulu, langsung digiring ke kamar sama mak gw buat tidur siang.... :D

Sayang yang di Youtube gak lengkap.... tapi lumayan la buat nostalgia.... nanti kapan" mau bli DVD nya.....

credit image: here

2. Lagu nya John Travolta sama Olivia Newton-John: Summer Nights di film Grease

Ini gw gak tau apa gw nonton sama Bapak Emak gw atau gimana.... Secara ni film kan taun 1978 ya.... Gw lahir nya aja taun 1986..... Hihihihi.... Tapi tiap kali gw denger lagu ini spertinya gw inget sama masa kecil gw yg detail nya gak bisa gw inget lagi.... *errr, gimana ya jelasinnya*

Pokoknya some part of my early life gitu de.... Biasanya kita cuma inget samar-samar atau bahkan gak inget kan sama masa kecil kita yang balita....

Makanya gw seneng dengerin lagu ini.... :) Karna gw jauh dr ortu juga kali ya.... Kangen de sama mreka.... T_T

credit image: here

Uda, lagi itu aja si dalam bbrapa hari blakangan ini... Nanti klo nemu hal-hal lain yang penting, gw crita" lagi y *penting buat gw ya... kan ini blog gw... hehe*

Melatih kesabaran... Susyeh yaaa

Sehubungan sama judul di atas, saya mau sharing sdikit.
Saya sekarang kebetulan adalah salah satu team leader di departement di mana saya bekerja di prusahaan ini. Setelah jatuh bangun bekerja tanpa lelah demi sesuap nasi *tsaaah... lebay*, tentunya. Ini bukan jabatan yang tinggi, namun saya memiliki beberapa katakanlah anak buah di team saya.

Nah, yang saya ingin bahas di sini adalah hubungan pekerjaan saya dengan anak buah saya, yang sedikit banyak melibatkan banyak aspek di dalam diri saya, seperti kemanusiaan *tsaah.... lagi*, hati nurani, pikiran, kejiwaan, dan lainnya *mungkin sama halnya dengan mereka*...
Yang paling terasa sebenarnya adalah melatih kesabaran dan tetap memelihara hati nurani saya.
Pada dasarnya saya termasuk orang yang tidak tegaan terhadap orang lain, namun ada kalanya juga saya paksakan untuk 'tega', pada kondisi-kondisi tertentu. Misalnya waktu orang yang saya tidak tega-i itu malah menginjak-injak saya *sudah cukup sering kejadian*.
Ini yang membuat saya serba salah.

Bagaimana menjadi atasan yang baik, yang bisa mengarahkan anak buahnya dengan baik, tanpa membuat mereka menyimpan sakit hati atau merasa tersinggung kepada saya, namun juga membuat saya layak menerima respect yang pantas dari mereka. Sepertinya inilah yang sulit bagi saya.
Bagi kebanyakan orang, menjadi atasan berarti bisa memiliki kekuasaan lebih, memerintah bawahan dengan semaunya, dan juga melimpahkan tanggung jawab kepada anak buahnya *saya juga anak buah dari atasan saya tentunya*. Walaupun tidak semua atasan berpikiran demikian. Ini hanya kebiasaan yang terjadi di masyarakat pada umumnya.

Sampai sekarang saya jujur masih saja belum bisa menyeimbangkan hal tersebut. Di mana anak-anak saya seringkali memojokkan saya, menekan saya, menyuruh saya *beda dengan minta tolong*, sedangkan saya selalu terbiasa untuk meminta mereka untuk menyelesaikan pekerjaan tertentu dengan menggunakan kata-kata yang sepantasnya *tolong, please, thanks*.

Seperti juga hubungan yang harusnya saling mendukung, malah menjadi berat sebelah. Saat ada mereka memiliki pekerjaan yang membutuhkan peran serta saya, saya akan langsung memprioritaskannya, dan menyelesaikannya secepat mungkin, karena tidak ingin menjatuhkan mereka di depan customer mereka. Namun sebaliknya, jika saya yang membutuhkan bantuan mereka untuk laporan, atau pekerjaan yang diberikan atasan saya, 1 hari 10 jam kerja pun belum tentu selesai. kalaupun selesai dalam 1 hari, pastinya sudah saya ingatkan berkali-kali *saya benci melakukan ini, kesannya cerewet ya, tapi kalau tidak ada pilihan?*.... dengan menerima berbagai alasan yang mendukung kelambanan mereka.

Inilah yang saya sebut belajar bersabar sekaligus belajar untuk lebih tegas, karena saya tetap berusaha untuk tidak meninggalkan jejak pahit di hati mereka, walaupun mereka meninggalkan jejak-jejak pahit di hati saya.
Sulit memang, karena normalnya kita tentu ingin membalas perbuatan seseorang kepada diri kita dengan setimpal atau lebih.
Yah, namanya juga belajar. Seperti sekolah, bisa naik kelas, atau justru tinggal kelas dan mengulang-ulang pelajaran yang sama :)

Gak bisa buka Facebook .. !

Di kantor gw Facebook di banned... Dammit!

Pake kproxy.com --- gagal
Pake atunnel.com --- gagal bleh
Pake Mozilla *di kantor gw biasanya pake IE* --- gagal maning

Inti nya.... banyak jalan menuju Roma..... tapi in my case, semua jalannya buntu!

Kesel..... Bete... Ngambek.... Mewek.... Minta dihibur...... *mulay lebay dey*

Cengeng? Cepet marah? Gak kok.... cuma lagi Sensitip... :P

Gak tau ni knapa gw belakangan ini sensitif banget, segala isu bisa bikin gw cepet bereaksi... Padahal kan gw asli nya cuek... *hihihihih*....

Baca kasus Ibu Prita... gw sedih sampe nahan nangis *maklum ye, klo baca brita entu di kantor, dan posisi duduk gw berhadapan sama anak" gw di kantor, huhu, jaim donk klo nangis tiba" bisa pada heboh*

Denger isu kantor yang lagi chaotic karena rezim yang tidak bertanggung jawab... bawaan nya pengen lari ke kantor atasan, trus ngamuk" dari A-Z secara dramatis, kritis, dan setajam keris... *lebay*

Baca kasus Manohara, keselll banget karna gak abis", sama si suami kok tega-teganya *klo bener ya kata" si Mano, kayaknya si dia bner, walopun agak sedikit lumayan lebay**Mano klo baca, no offense yaaa, aku padamu!*

Baca preview film" sedih *contoh ni blog dari teman blogger & FDer juga :D di sini*

Adalah dua anak manusia *tsaaah* yang terlibat cinta segitiga (dengan Tuhan). Cina, si laki-laki yang Katolik dan Anissa, si perempuan yang Islam. Cina cinta pada Tuhan, Anissa cinta Tuhan, Tuhan mencintai keduanya tapi mereka tak bisa saling mencintai karena mereka memanggil Tuhan dengan sebutan yang berbeda.

..duh, kok gw menitikkan air mata... padahal baru baca segitu doank...

Apalagi nonton dokumentasi 'Ganyang Malaysia' di Youtube *kan lagi populer soalnya kaaak...*... gw nangis juga gara" nasib pahlawan yang gugur dalam usahanya, tapi sama skali gak ada di plajaran sejarah, alias gak diinget...


Pas gw inget" lagi, apa mungkin gara" gw hamil.... ?
Hmmm... ternyata aku belum hamil.... jadi mungkin juga gara" usia yang semakin bertambah, aku pun jadi semakin sensitip.... doh!